I Create My Life: My Update Post

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It’s been a while since I’ve blogged. I’ve spent the past several months getting everything about my life together. The drama surrounding my break-up coupled with my moving and being in a strange in-between stage forced me to go deeply within and restructure my entire existence.

As I type this post I am currently sitting in a posh coffee shop in Atlanta Georgia. Yes, after four years of dreaming, planning, plotting, and manifesting I have finally made the move. I’m barely a month in and I absolutely love this amazing city. Every day is a new discovery. Every day is a new challenge. Every day is a new blessing. Moving here was the best decision I have ever made and I am extremely grateful that I put faith and trust in my intuition. I know without a doubt that I am supposed to be here and the Universe continues to show me. Within one week not only was I offered two very good paying jobs that allow me the flexibility to maintain my spiritual lifestyle but I found a great house to rent. I arrived in Atlanta radiating an aura of fearlessness, openness, and being limitless. As a result I have attracted so many opportunities. I am now professionally art modeling and have been offered a space to teach community yoga classes. Of course there’s still my poetry and jewelry making and there is a thriving professional as well as spiritual community that I have been able to tap into. I’ve been able to dive deeper into African spiritual practices and learn more about my culture. There’s so much potential for growth and success in this city. This is the first time in a long time where I am not struggling, where I feel like anything is possible. It is my goal to get my real estate license here and purchase a home by next year. Socially, people are very friendly, helpful, and authentic. Not to mention that my dating options are through the roof. I’m constantly getting approached by men and women who are interested in me. All of this makes me feel empowered.

We are now in harvest season, which makes all of this even more perfect. I am definitely harvesting all of the seeds I have planted over these past several months. There is no lack in my garden and all of my reflections are full of beauty and love. My theme for this harvest is “I Create My Life.” This phrase is at the root of my planning and the center of my vision board. There is so much energy behind that statement. It keeps you motivated, disciplined, and empowered. It also takes one out of the role of being a victim and/or blaming others. The statement also requires one to take responsibility for the situations they are in. I want to be a real estate agent and certified yoga instructor, therefore I create the situations necessary to manifest that. I want to travel and own a home, I create that. I create peace and harmony. I create balance, gratitude, and healing.  I create beauty and art. I create security,  openness, and love. These are all the things I want so I create them.

I think the biggest seed that I am harvesting is freedom. It’s something my spirit was craving, even while I was with my ex-girlfriend. I allowed our relationship to limit me in many ways and keep me from growing. I wanted freedom so I created our break-up though the desire didn’t make the experience any less painful. I’d be remiss if I didn’t acknowledge that there are a lot of things I am doing now that I would not have had the space to do while we were together. During the spring equinox I offered “freedom” to the Universe as my sole wish and now, during the fall equinox, I am harvesting it. It’s interesting how letting go of one form of love allows you to receive it abundantly from many sources. For the first time ever I am in the space to give and receive love openly and freely with anyone I am connected to. My relationship with my primary lover (whom I affectionately call my Balance) has helped me with this tremendously. He recognizes and has told me that I am at my happiest when I am free. Therefore he works hard to allow me that space while loving me unconditionally. This has created such a healing space for me. I’ve connected to the fact that part of my life’s purpose is to share love with others, as it is such a powerful form of healing and we are currently in a time where we all need as much healing as we can get. My paradise is being in a space to love openly with the support of those around me.

I create my Queendom. 

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Ase!

Free Spirit v.s Corporate Woman-Finding Balance

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Last year for me was all about exploring my creative side and developing my spirituality. This year I’ve shifted my priorities to focus on building my real estate business and getting my non-profit organization off the ground.

Being self-employed, creating my own brand, and essentially establishing my own company is an extremely exciting endeavor for me. Once I decide on a course of action I can be very disciplined, doing all that needs to be done to accomplish my goal. I’m an “all or nothing” type personality so at times my work ethic can be borderline obsessive. I’ll let everything fall the wayside as I put all my time, energy, and resources into my focus project. I admit that it’s a lot of work but I enjoy the challenge. I feel like there’s something rewarding (besides money) in being productive and I love going to meetings, conducting conference calls, wearing business suits, and coordinating workshops/seminars.

But I’m still an artist.

I’ve noticed that I’ve been so focused on my career these past few months that I’ve been neglecting my artistic side.  I have so many creative outlets; poetry, blogging, jewelry making, drawing (mandalas), pottery, and I’m about to add sewing clothes to the mix. All of which are more for my sanity than anything. I need something to channel all my restless energy into. But since I made real estate my top priority I haven’t been writing much, making jewelry, or going to any open mics. I hadn’t realized how much I needed all of that until last weekend when I returned to Vegas for a visit. The purpose was to attend a few meetings and take care of some real estate tasks. But after I was done handling business I traded my business suit and heels for a gypsy skirt and bare feet– spending the time remaining immersing myself in art, poetry, and music. I had totally missed the art scene and being in that environment was so good for my spirit.

I’m realizing how vital it is for me to nurture all aspects of myself. That it’s possible for me to maintain the discipline needed to be a successful career woman while setting time aside to travel and create. I’ve started to put both into practice and as a result have developed a healthy balance. I wake up early every morning to meditate and exercise. I spend eight hours working from home or at the local coffee shop. I take lunch breaks and eat dinner at a decent hour. I designate every evening to have time to myself so that I can write, draw, read a book, watch movies, or engage in whatever activity I feel like engaging in at that moment. I found a yoga and meditation group in the area that meets weekly and on some Sundays I volunteer to pass out food to needy families. I spent most the month of February working with two clients and as soon as their transactions were closed I took off to Los Angeles to spend the weekend with my best friend. I loved having that freedom to travel and enjoy the money made after working diligently for weeks.

When is comes to the free spirit vs. the corporate woman I know I’m dealing with a polarity but I’m learning that they can be balanced, and at times blended. The free spirit needs discipline in order to finish projects, such as a poetry album or book. And the corporate women needs flexibility in order to come up with creative out of the box ways to build her business brand. When I sacrifice one side of myself for the other my entire spirit suffers. And at the end of the day, the sacrifice isn’t even necessary. By utilizing both I’m able to create exactly the type of life I’ve envisioned living–a life that is rewarding, fulfilling, and productive.