I first got the idea of starting my own non-profit organization several years ago when I was still married. It was during that time that I discovered that my passion resided in engaged community activism. I spent months researching and drafting a business plan and then tucked it neatly away with the intention of initiating it when I felt the “time was right”. Needless to say life got in the way, along with all its distractions and obstacles and I never got around to initiating that business plan. I consider the pause divine delay as I needed the time to obtain the experience necessary to carry such an undertaking. And not just professional experience but spiritual and emotional maturity as well. The delay also helped me to narrow down exactly which part of the community I wanted my organization to serve.
Though I’m extremely patient when it comes to laying the groundwork for my plans I’m also very action oriented and know when it’s time to make moves. I dedicated all of 2013 to completing the projects I started and subsequently published my poetry book and got my real estate license. Now, I’ve dedicated 2014 to putting my dreams to action.
I’ve pulled out that old business plan and have been working on revamping it. I find it interesting how everything always works out the way the Universe intended it to. I didn’t plan to be stuck in California through the spring and yet being here allows me the space I need to actively complete my business plan as I am now without any of the things that had been distracting me previously. I have good relationships with family and (very few) close friends who fully support me rather than use me and drain me of all my energy. My home life is positive, peaceful, and without the chaos that was interfering with my focus. My real estate career is fast growing and I’m enjoying the second income I’m receiving through tutoring–both of which are allowing me to become financially stable again, eliminating the stress of worrying about money. The absence of a committed relationship also leaves me more time and energy to put into my business. In a way I’m also grateful for that lesson. I’ve been presented with a few opportunities from interested lovers however I prefer to maintain my emotional independence as it has kept me very productive.
So what is my highest vision? I want to open a resource center for queer youth in Atlanta. This is my entire purpose for wanting to relocate down south. My vision for this is huge, the details extensive. I want to incorporate a lot of services to meet the needs of queer and homeless youth and a lot of my ideas for doing so are completely out of the box when compared to how social services are currently offered. Yet my platform isn’t just about addressing a need, it’s also about addressing the root of the problem. I see clearly that the only way to facilitate change is to radically shift the way we’ve been doing things as a society because what we’ve been doing isn’t working. I admit that a big part of why I sat on this dream for so long was because I was intimidated by the magnitude of what I was trying to do and I questioned my ability to pull it off. Yet as I separate myself from all the things that were holding me back and sit down to work out how I could make this non-profit happen I see how realistic it will be to apply all of my ideas. In less than two weeks I worked out the basic structure of my resource center and homeless shelter, came up with a name, found potential networking and partnership opportunities, located possible buildings, and identified funding sources. I see that starting my own non-profit won’t be as difficult as I originally thought and that I can accomplish it in a year or less. I have come to understand how perfect it is that I’m taking a break in California for a few months. By the time I am ready to move to Atlanta my business plan will be complete and ready to initiate. I’ll be able to hit the ground running as soon as I arrive in my new city!
The Year of the Horse is all about action. As an activist I firmly believe that talk is hollow without the action behind it. I’ve done enough planning, now it’s time to make my dreams a reality. I believe wholeheartedly in my ability to manifest my highest vision.