We Can’t Afford Not To Be Honest With Ourselves

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What a strange turn of events. All that keeps running in my head is that, at this point in my life, I cannot afford not to be honest with myself. None of us can.

I’m seeing myself as I was 5 years ago. Beyond my years in many ways but so young in matters of relationships. My biggest hindrance; I was never honest with myself. I was never honest about how I felt. I was never honest about what I wanted. I was never honest about what I thought. I was never honest about the reality of the situations I was in. I was never honest about the things that mattered in a relationship. I paid dearly for that lack of honesty.

Growth doesn’t come without one first being honest with themselves. Otherwise, how else will the problem be identified if  it’s lost in a cloud  of denial? I’ve gotten way past the point of wanting to continue repeating the same negative cycles. A better developed sense of self-awareness and clarity has taught me the importance of being real with myself. About everything. Even if that means I have to admit when I’ve made a mistake or acknowledging when things are not ok. With acknowledgment comes wisdom in knowing when to make a change for the better because, really, what’s the alternative? Ignore what’s there and settle for the worse? Staying in situations that aren’t healthy?

I see myself.  It’s like looking at a ghost in the mirror–Toya of Relationship Past. She’s not completely happy. She knows there is something wrong. She sees that things are not quite how she wants them to be. And yet she continues on as though everything is all good. I feel for that ghost. She has a long journey ahead of her.

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2 thoughts on “We Can’t Afford Not To Be Honest With Ourselves

  1. It is so funny, because most of my on-line ranting has been about addressing the BS… Everyone lives on Fantasy Island…

    I remember a quote from one of my mentors about Jesus Christ…

    Every Knee Shall Bow & Every Tongue Shall Confess That Jesus Christ Is Lord…

    And he was fear mongering those that didn’t come to church & said

    “Either you will walk in to church (On Sunday,) or get ROLLED into Church (in a coffin…), but you will be in church…”

    That is pretty much what be honest is like… At some point in life, you have to deal with reality… And address your BS…

    Goodnight…

    P.S. Christian example were only used to illustrate a point… I still love me some #BuddhaPussy

    • I love your insight on this.

      “That is pretty much what be honest is like… At some point in life, you have to deal with reality… And address your BS…”

      Especially that comment.

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