Today has been a helluva day, to say the least. To the point where I needed to check my calendar for the lunar schedule. Full moon was yesterday, close enough.
Not even a whole 24 hours after my last post about calling folks out shit hit the fan. Apparently I managed to ruffle a few feathers , to the point where a short campaign was launched to discredit me and my blog post. While I’m past the point of caring about (or sparing) people’s feelings, I did make the promise not to escalate the “situation” by further commenting on it publicly. Not a peep was made nor a status about the situation updated on my Twitter/Facebook while I sat back and watched myself being slandered all day. Buddha would have been proud.
However it does bring me to speak on something else. In addition to my blog site, my Facebook page has also been under close scrutiny. To the point where I’ve had to consider deleting folks and/or streamlining my posts. What it is, is that people read too much into things. Updates, blogs, status’, people will read all of these with a certain conclusion drawn. Then will take one sentence, one paragraph as the “AHA!” and run with it. She must be talking about so and so. She must be writing about that situation. It’s all speculation and assumption. Many won’t look at the bigger picture. I’m not too proud to admit that I’ve done this same exact thing plenty of occasions. I’ve been reminded that everything isn’t about me. I’ve also been told that hit dogs will holler. How true both these statements are.
At the same time, I’m not going to apologize for being myself. I’m at a very critical crossroad in my life. I have spent a very long time allowing those I am close to, to walk all over me without protest. I’m simply over it. I’ve taken a lot of shit from a lot of people and I’m not going to ask permission to dish it back out. Call me an angry Black woman. If standing up for myself and taking no shit labels me as such I’ll wear the mantle. I’m also back to not caring what others think of me.
I firmly stand by all that I have written on this blog thus far. And this is not only in regards to my last post but all that I have written prior to that. While a very small fraction of my posts have been dedicated to my personal situation there are a lot more that pay homage to the diverse topics I like to engage in. Don’t like it, don’t read it.Regardless my world is going to continue to spin and I’m going to continue to write about it.